Looking Back
My search for meaning in life did not instantly translate as a search for divinity although the address of this homepage gives away the ending right at the beginning. Eager to explore paths not so well-traveled by those around me, I embarked on adulthood and left behind my Midwestern roots to finish college on the East Coast of the U.S.
As a child during the 1960’s, the tumultuous decade was somewhat beyond my immediate reach – although instead of “cowboys and Indians” I played “cops and hippies” with the other children in the neighborhood. The eddies of the cultural revolution happening in my midst did kick in eventually when I went to college. Immersed in social activism, I think I joined and championed just about every political cause one could imagine, with the main focus on feminism. I sought meaning in relationships and career aspirations as well, going to graduate school part-time while working at a library at a prestigious university in Boston. Mostly I would apply myself in a quest for success in a certain goal and quickly ask myself in puzzlement, “Is this really the meaning of life?”
Looking back on it now, I figure that God knew that I was ripe for spirituality when I kept observing how the groups trying to create a better world seemed to just replicate society’s problems on a micro-level. Following a spiritual path patterned on Sri Chinmoy’s teachings, the wiser quest of changing oneself in order to help change the world one person at a time rings in my life with deepest certainty. 2021 marks the 36th anniversary of when I became a disciple of Sri Chinmoy.
The greatest gift this path has brought me is the slow but steady transition to more and more self-acceptance and love. It has also schooled me in a new outlook on the meaning of life – namely increasing one’s love and closeness with the divinity within and the glory of God singing forth in every corner in the world without. Since my spiritual name is the Bengali word for road, I conclude this short bio with a phrase from a poem I wrote predating receipt of this name,
God for God’s Sake Mantra Breath.
No Other Road to Ignorance Death.
My Eyes Tell Me, My Heart Tells Me
My eyes tell me you are there, over there beside me. My heart tells me you are here, right here inside me.
My eyes tell me you are beautiful, O so beautiful. My heart tells me you are one with beauty, you created beauty.
My eyes feed my mind with your purity light. My heart feeds my soul with your love delight.
Yard Safari - Better Than Cable
A photo of birds at my new feeder in my backyard
A little over a week ago I bought a deluxe birdfeeder from Wild Birds Unlimited in Seekonk, Massachusetts called The Eliminator because it is designed to keep squirrels from eating the seeds and nuts inside.
photo by Sharani
I have positioned it not too far from a window looking out from the living room into the backyard. I now have a new hobby. I can sit mesmerized for long stretches at a time with my camera poised for pictures and watch the birds and squirrels. The feeder perches are set so that the bigger birds cannot feed at it and the weight of the squirrels causes the openings to shut closed when the squirrels try to eat at them. It really works as you can see in these photos!
photo by Sharani
photo by Sharani
The squirrels have had to settle on eating whatever seed the birds drop and I splurged on a no-mess variety without any shells in order to keep the ground under the feeder relatively clean. Already the neighborhood cats have discovered this new safari as well and take great interest in the influx of birds to my yard.
I am truly delighted to mesh my interests in nature photography and birdwatching by owning a backyard feeder. Up close and personal beats the Discovery Channel on cable anytime although I hear that the new BBC DVD set called Planet Earth which I bought for the library where I work has some of the best nature footage on television ever. For now, I'll just keep my ringside seat on the couch and snap away.
Daffodils in Dartmouth
Parsons Reserve, Dartmouth MA
When you are a town employee for almost 14 years and many of your co-workers grew up in said town, you come to feel like an integral part of the community even without living there.
Such being the case, I was so pleasantly surpised to learn of a large field of daffodils not too far from my work for the first time this spring. It is owned by the Town's Natural Resources Dept., having been given as a gift by the former owner of the property.
I have gone there twice in the last couple of weeks - the first time only about half of the daffodils were blooming and the second time more like 85 percent. After walking up a hill through the woods, there is a nice wooden bench to sit on and big field of daffodils that have been planted with empty rows left for walking between them. One other visitor there guessed it was about an acre in size.
Photos by Sharani
So many flowers all together amongst the trees and wooded area are stunning in their impact. The sheer number of daffodils creates a sunny sea of yellow cheerfulness. While I often subscribe to the opinion that good things often come in small packages, this is a case where a large quantity and scope makes a much more impressive visual impact.
I took some photos of the daffodil field called Parsons Reserve and they can be viewed at my gallery album.
Discovering this treasure for the first time feels like a real gift of spirit to me. I envision that a spiritual seeking and gratitude for the divine in natural beauty opened the door to learning of this precious flower oasis. I cherish it immensely and am grateful for these delights that seem to stem from a God-focused life.
Other Bountiful Quantities of Flowers
In August 2004, Ashrita Furman set a Guinness World Record for the world's largest bouquet. It was made of 101,791 roses and was offered in honor of Sri Chinmoy's 73rd birthday.

Das Leben ist ein Marathon

Ich trainiere gerade für einen Marathon. Und ich möchte den richtig schnell laufen. Mindestens unter 2 Stunden 30 Minuten. Warum? Wofür der ganze Aufwand? Nun ja, so ein Marathon erfordert viel Training, Disziplin, eine gesunde Ernährung und eine gesunde Denk- und Lebensweise.
Um einen Marathon zu laufen, braucht man Konzentration, Willenskraft, Durchhaltevermögen, Mut, Geduld, Furchtlosigkeit, Enthusiasmus, Gleichmut und vieles mehr. Genau diese Dinge entwickle ich beim Trainieren für den Marathon und beim Wettkampf. Und das sind auch die Qualitäten, die man auf dem "Schlachtfeld des Lebens" braucht, um voranzukommen. Beim Marathon übe ich mich sozusagen fürs Leben. Es gibt da wirklich viele Parallelen. Deshalb trainiere ich dafür, einen Marathon immer schneller zu bewältigen.
Und meine tägliche Meditation (mein inneres Training) bildet immer den Grundstein für mein äußeres Training. Bevor ich mit der Meditation und dem spirituellen Leben begonnen habe, war es für mich undenkbar ein Marathon zu laufen. Erst durch die Meditation habe ich mein Bewusstsein für solche Themen geöffnet. Ich habe auch viel neue Lebensfreude durch die regelmäßige Meditation und das spirituelle Leben freisetzten können. Diese Freude ist auch mein Motor sowohl fürs Laufen als auch fürs Leben.
Ich habe noch eine weitere Motivation, einen schnellen Marathon zu laufen. Das ist auch meine Hauptmotivation: Mein spiritueller Meister Sri Chinmoy hat mich dazu inspiriert. Er selbst war ein leidenschaftlicher Läufer und in seiner Jugend sogar ein Sprinter, der viele Wettkämpfe gewann. Seine Schüler hat er ermutigt, regelmässig Sport zu treiben. Seine sportlich talentierten Schüler, "die schnellen Läufer" sozusagen, hat er gebeten, den Marathon unter 2 Stunden 30 Minuten zu laufen. Dieser Einladung meines Meisters folge ich nun seit einigen Jahren.
Mittlerweile bin ich bei 2 Stunden 48 Minuten (Stand Herbst 2014). Mal schauen, ob es demnächst soweit ist mit den 2:30. Ich habe das Ziel fest im Visier. Mit der Gnade Gottes und der Gnade des Meisters werde ich mein Ziel erreichen. Aber nur, um mir dann ein noch höheres Ziel zu setzten (2:20??). Ganz nach der Philosophie meines Meisters Sri Chinmoy: "Das Ziel von heute ist der Ausgangspunkt von morgen". Glaubt mir, das spirituelle Leben wird nie langweilig.
Samalya Schäfer, Berlin 2014
Yesterday Musicians
In the early days of the Sri Chinmoy Centre in New Zealand lots of interesting characters came to the path and idle moments and Joy Days and random evenings together seemed filled with funny and entertaining trifles.
Toshala was at the peak of her accordion prowess and could dash off some madly difficult classical piece with dazzling and effortless brilliance while we held our breath in disbelief. We would clamour for encores and she would oblige with another then another.
One boy, who had reinvented the car engine and was a very talented engineer, could capture the melodies of songs by clicking his jawbone – we were mesmerised! By rotating and clicking his lower jaw in its socket he could produce a series of precise bony notes that were clear renditions of simple songs. How we applauded! Another character pasted a cigarette paper to his lower lip and with the tissue acting as a surrogate reed, he could produce a cornemuse, brassy vibrato sound and play any song we requested by blowing through pursed lips! It was funny and extraordinary and we were charmed.
A young boy who came later could play Sri Chinmoy's song Phule Phule with his toes on a guitar – we would marvel at such an eccentric skill and how this might have come about. Still someone else played songs with two teaspoons in one hand and two dessertspoons in the other, running up and down the octave with uncanny accuracy – everyone would join in, the jawbone specialist, the cigarette paper vibrato, Toshala on the accordion, and the clapping of hands, a clown orchestra.
Recently Bhuvah played an old tape of her father whistling, a recording salvaged from her long ago childhood. Neville Thurston played the piano and accompanied himself with a very skillful and unusual double warbling, almost two different simultaneous notes. It was pure Kiwiana, the little things that come out of our landscapes and rural towns and winter nights and capture some feeling of what we are like, who we are.
The whistling from Neville Thurston's past filled us with some nostalgia for the long ago, its sweet memories and hopes and promises and a wistfulness at the fact of ageing, the passage of time. His whistling came out of a distant past and carried the pathos of yesterdays' lovely hopes and today's reality, a poignant snap of their family's springtime. Here he was, half a lifetime later playing the piano and whistling for us again, everything preserved on this old tape and bringing past and present together. Why do these snapshots of long ago so touch the heart – perhaps because we exist not only in space, but also in time, and what we are is attenuated out like an elastic band across the years of our living. The past and the present are really the same, and exist together.
– Jogyata.
How to Make the Fastest Progress
Many years ago Sri Chinmoy offered a very fortunate group of his students a glimpse into an unexplored and unexpected corner of their spiritual life – he offered to disclose their best inner quality, their worst quality and how each could make the fastest spiritual progress.
While a spiritual name or soul's name which Sri Chinmoy sometimes confers, identifies the soul's predominant or unique qualities, the 'best quality' highlights another active aspect, also powerful but the revelation of a different facet of the soul. The soul's name may also be a blossoming capacity, a bud opening and flowering during this and other lives while the 'best quality' is a current facet that may be replaced by another best, or worst, quality at a later stage.
Thus a spiritual name may describe the unique qualities and depths and tendencies of the soul, like a potentiality constantly revealing itself and moving towards its own self-unfoldment, while the best quality is a powerful flowering of that potentiality or tendency into life. Similarly, a 'worst quality' too is not a permanent feature of our inner life and only awaits its transformation or extinction through effort and progress – the soul's light finally banishes the shadows.
All those years ago, with trembling fingers I opened my envelope where in the Master's own inimitable and flowing handwriting several short, precise statements identified my best and worst spiritual qualities, and then there followed a brief description of how I could make the fastest progress. Sri Chinmoy only offered this opportunity the once, since this knowledge required of the Master a thorough and often exhaustive examination of our inner nature, a taxing commitment that summoned his deepest insight and searching inner gaze.
I already had suspicions about my worst quality and Sri Chinmoy's comments both confirmed this with an uncompromising clarity and demonstrated, unnervingly, how clearly he could see into my deepest secrets and tendencies and thoughts. Later I swapped notes and shared qualities with several good friends and we were head nodding for hours at the wisdom of the Master and the profundity of the comments he had made, their absolute and individual relevance. Since our best and worst qualities are of no use to anyone else there is little point in describing them and they are probably not intended for others to see – besides, our worst qualities, fifteen years on, may have been nudged out of the limelight by another of our numerous impediments to realisation, or our best qualities surpassed by a newly blossoming flower in the beautiful garden of the heart and soul.
But as part of my 'how to make the fastest progress' Sri Chinmoy did urge that I practice 'conscious cheerfulness in the outer life' and this was of great help in trying to overcome a longtime habit of reticence and a disposition towards melancholy.
Those of us privileged to be given this glimpse into our deeper nature, a window of self understanding opened by the Master's grace, felt our life positively changed by this knowledge for it gave us confidence to unleash and to express our best qualities more, and a resolve to indulge or tolerate our worst qualities less. And then to apply the 'how to make the fastest progress' insights – pure gold!
The soul has come down to earth with the simple overriding purpose of consciously realising God, and God's Ambassador has just personally told you how to achieve this very, very quickly! Phew!
– Jogyata.
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